It's scary.  I'm terrified.  I don't want to get vulnerable again.  I want to keep my distance.  The less I invest into this, the less it'll hurt if it doesn't work out.  .... But I feel myself starting to feel more.  The walls are starting to crumble down.  I'm starting to become more and more vulnerable, and I hate it.  I hate showing these emotions, much less having them at all in the first place.  Yeah, I understand that this is what being in a relationship is all about-- getting vulnerable with someone else as much as they are getting with you.
Regardless, I still hate feeling weak.


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Lord,

Help me to continue guarding my heart.  This is the only way I know how.