Wednesday, February 29, 2012

I'm trying so hard, you have no idea.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

God,

grant me patience and understanding
give me eyes to see everyone in the same way that You see them
provide me the strength to go through the rest of this week

hold me, comfort me, lead me.

Friday, February 3, 2012

powderpuff season

So... it begins.

Today was the first official practice for KUSA powderpuff....... and omgah.  I seriously feel like I'm gonna die........... T_______T so many drills.  So many ways to run.  So many ways to twist and turn and beat and stretch your body.  Ughhhhhhhhh I'm not gonna be able to get out of bed tomorrow, seriously.  This is the most physical activity I've done since... I dunno, mission training for Dominican Republic or something.  Like KUSA volleyball training wasn't that bad.  It was just volleyball drills and a couple laps around the track.  But this timeeeeeee it's like friggin backwards suicides and sprints and DEATH.

omGAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

...

I just wanted to complain and whine a little bit but I'm done now.
Time to pass out for like 15 hours.
Goodnight.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

side project

http://hikarathatov.blogspot.com/

Just a small thing I decided to start.  Still keeping this one as my main blog though, but feel free to follow :)

scared to be alone

Thank you, God, for constantly hearing me and abundantly giving me reasons to praise you in every moment of every day.  You are awesome  :)



Lovers leave and friends forsake
But there's one thing that I know
My heart will heal and my heart will break
But I'll never be alone

Be near, be near, oh God, be near!



Monday, January 30, 2012

balance

School, friends, family, boyfriend, church, time to myself.  So hard to find a right balance between them.  Even within school, there's different subjects to balance.  Even within friends, there's different groups of people to balance with.

I've never really been good with time management, but I feel like these days it's getting even harder and harder.  Now that I'm getting older (CRY), I get tired so much more easily.  More nap times for me.  Too tired to stay up past midnight these days.  I used to be able to pull multiple all-nighters in a week only one or two years ago.  Now they're out of the question.  Those were the best nights of my life... staying up all night, studying for Physics with Mingie, sitting at the library and messing around with Jennie and Jay til we're all delirious and laughing about farts, photo booth instead of studying, bringing tons of junk food and scarfing them down within the first hour that we get there.  Deep, meaningful life talks as our study breaks.

I miss it.  I miss them all.  I miss everything I used to have with everyone.  But now everyone is in different places, both physically and mentally.  ... But I guess I understand.  It's just a part of growing up, and these are the growing pains that come with it.

Hmm.  Oops... this entry was meant to be about me balancing stuff and time management and everything, but... looks like it's taken a nostalgic turn ahaha.  Time to go.  I may or may not expand on this entry later, but I most likely will not.  So yeah.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Sigh.

Already stressed about school.


... among other things.

But mostly school.


......




Sigh.