It's amazing how much of an impact a single word can make. One word, one certain tone of voice, one look, one gesture. Sometimes I want to purposely change myself just to show them that these things each have the power to cut deep into the soul. How will they react? Will they finally bite their tongues?
But I won't. I'm not going to change myself; I wouldn't betray myself like that. Instead, although it's not going to change anything, I'm going to hold my head up high and pretend it doesn't hurt me. I know that's the "right thing to do", so then why do I feel uneasy?
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I'm becoming more and more disappointed in our generation. Myself included. Why do we put so much value in worthless things?
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I can't wait until summer school is over. Going to Texas for a week and then California the day after I come back. I only wish I could stay there. Then maybe certain people would appreciate me a little more.
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I realize that this is a very super-sensitively emotionally charged and ridiculously "emo" entry. But I need this. It's an outburst of the accumulation of built up frustrations and hurts I've been experiencing lately, and if I don't let it out here, then I may just rightly explode.
Angie.... when we gonna hang out? I make you feel better
ReplyDeleteLOL @ Stacey's comment. I like that reassuring last sentence.
ReplyDeleteI APPRECIATE YOUUUU. And no worries about ranting girl. That's what this place is for (another reason why I came back puahaha).
i totally feel you. but don't ever change! you know what i do to counteract those fools? ignore them. and be different and be crazy! don't be predictable! but always know your boundaries. i think that knowing yourself and being true to yourself is a source of happiness for many. then you don't have to worry about people who judge you. who cares what they think?! anyway, i'm always here for ya, babygirl ;)
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