moodytron

I'm in quite a.... weird mood. For a lack of a better term. It's just a combination of a tonnnnnn of emotions. But I think overall, it's a positive one :)

Exhausted. Ridiculously exhausted. I didn't sleep last night. I was going to take a nap, but Olivia came to visit me as soon as my head hit my pillow... haha it's okay though, I love her. I literally had no break all day today. I just finished recitation about twenty minutes ago... and now that I can sleep, I'm so excited that I can't!! Ughhhhh the ironyyyyyy!!

Frustrated. I don't want to say why, in fear that the person that this is about is going to read this particular entry. But I'm quite frustrated and angry. But I'm too much of a pushover to really say or do anything about it. It's not fair for me, but I suppose he'll get what he deserves in the end (I sound so mean... I mean that in the least hostile way possible, I promise!)

Proud. I GET CS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ... at least, kinda sorta. Ish. Hopefully I'll be able to master it even more by the exam this Thursday.

Ashamed. My head and heart are not where they were a few weeks ago. Must retreat, refocus, and retry. Never give up. Never forget.

Blessed. "Psalm 25:14-15." It was a mistake, he mentioned the wrong verse, he meant something else, yet.... it fit so well, so perfectly.

Depressed. I failed my Physics test. And when I say fail....... I mean I'm expecting somewhere around a 40-50%. Which I'm actually hoping for. I'm just glad it's over with, I guess.... but I did kind of bring it upon myself. Haaaaahaha.

Joyful. For many reasons. The people around me. My mom's ever so loving text messages. My brother and I getting along these days (haha it's a miracle). My beautiful grandmother and her prayers over me. Having fun and creating memories with new friends at Tech. Hanging out and reminiscing old memories with high school friends back home. Beautiful weather. Warm sunshine. A loving and forgiving God, who continues to teach me more and more in every passing moment, who shows up in the least expected times/places, who has the perfect plan for me.



Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Okay yeah the good definitely outweighs the bad :)