summer?

Doesn't feel like it.

Maybe because the temperature was in the 60s the past few days. Or maybe because I know I'm starting summer school in about six days. Or maybe because I haven't really begun playing yet.

But whatever. Summer '10! Whoo hoo.

Freshman year was tough. But fun!
... and that's all I gotta say about that. Haha.
Moving on.

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We need funds for our Thursday outreach. We bought food the past two weeks, and it's starting to add up... Can't forget that we're all just poor college students! I'm thinking about bringing it up to Pastor Peter and Pastor Jae. This week, we're planning a BBQ! Getting disposable grills and making some hot dogs and hamburgers! I'm excited :)

Last Thursday, we were doing what we did previous times-- handed out some food and just chilled and talked with a few of them. I was sitting with Eric and two of the homeless guys, Ant and Trey, when all of a sudden someone walked up to us. Needless to say, he was acting pretty hostile. He kept on glaring at me and asking me, "Why are you here? What do you want?"

I don't know why, but I was scared. I couldn't think straight. I couldn't think of a reply.

"Why are you doing this? You think we're some kind of zoo or something, where you people can just sit here and watch what we do like we're some kinda animals? Is this for a grade or something? So you can observe us and then write about us for your paper? Or is it for your community service? You want to help us so you can feel good about yourself? Why.. are.. you.. here?!"

Ant and Trey finally interceded, after only a silent response from me. They defended us, telling him to mind his own business, telling him that we mean no harm, telling him that we feed, that we care, that we're friends. After yelling back and forth from both parties, the man finally left.

My heart felt so heavy afterwards.

I know that not everyone is going to be appreciative of what we do. I know that it'll take time for some people to open up. I understand..... but it still hurts sometimes. When all we want to do is love on them, and they just can't accept that. I can only imagine how much more it must hurt Him. When all He wants to do is just love, but some people will not accept it.

I think we need more prayer.