focus, angie... focus.

I need to stop being so materialistic. Stop wanting so much of the world. It's all gonna fade away anyway.

I need to stop being so lazy. I now know why such a huge portion of people fall away in college. It's because of all the new found freedom, time, and independence. There's so many new opportunities, new people, new things to try out that we lose focus. Our habits start to fade away. Mine definitely did. In other words, I need to immerse myself in the Word. I need to take the time everyday to stop whatever I'm doing and just catch up. That's what I've been doing the first two weeks of school-- I would intentionally wake up thirty minutes earlier everyday just so I could walk to my classes while listening to praise songs and catching up with God. Though it was only thirty minutes, it was still a special time. Now, onto my third week in school, I've already gotten into the habit of riding the bus to my classes and walking with other people instead. Not that it's a terrible thing to walk with other people, I really do enjoy the company. It's just that I need time for just Him and me, and it's been hard to set apart that time nowadays. But I've just been too busy. ... But that's really no excuse.

One great thing about all this though... God still gracefully welcomes me with open arms every single time I approach him with my head down, no matter how badly I failed him, no matter how long it's been since the last time, no matter what... and there, where we meet, He lifts my head up, along with my hopes.